I Loathe Being a Weekend Dad

Now I know I'm not really a weekend father... I am involved with him daily, well, as much as time allows. As expected, I am active emotionally, physically and financially for my child. I never seek credit for what I'm supposed to do...You know, some of us are good for that...Chris Rock once said 👇🏾😂

For a while now, my new normal has been to spend time with my son mostly on the weekends. I must say that it was weird at first, but 2 plus years in, it's become my normal way of life. What has been heavy on my mind, especially as he has gotten older and more involved in sports and other activities, is that I need to spend more time with him.

My dilemma is my work schedule. 2nd shift is 2:30 pm to 11:30 pm, so it allows me time to take him to appointments, as well as being available for any school emergencies, errands or situations that may come up. But, once I'm at work, I'm at work. Now best believe, if I need to leave work for him, that's happening without any hesitation.

I hate the fact that I have had to miss games, not being able to take him to practices, or help with homework during the week. His mother does an amazing job with that along with everything else she has to juggle.

Trying to find a daytime position that still allows me to meet my financial obligations has been a little more challenging than I thought it would be. But, on the other hand, I do need to step up my efforts to make this happen. In this economy and job market, I know it's wise to stay where you are at. I know there is something out there that will be a great opportunity for me. I just really want to spend as much time as I can pouring into my son and aiding in his development.

This is a crucial time in his life and I want to make sure I make the time for him. Sometimes depression and guilt gets to me, even though I know I do the best I can...

I am blessed because I am able to provide for him and myself, but I am definitely ready for a change. I have been on some type of night shift since moving to Texas in 2018, and to say it plainly, I am TIRED. My body is thrown off, and so is my mind. I barely have energy to do anything in the morning after taking him to school even one day out of the week.

I find myself sleeping until it is time for me to get ready for work again, I said all of this to say, I cannot wait until I make this change. I am so ready to get back to a normal schedule., because right now, this ain't it...